‘Labour of love’ A self-portrait, oil on canvas. It’s impossible to compress into words what this journey is like, so I have attempted to capture some of the feelings in a painting. As always, I’m never happy with my finished work. I didn’t want to show it to anyone but plucked up the courage to… Continue reading Labour of Love

The majority of the time, I reacted well to the cocktail of drugs injected into my belly and bum for up to three months a time during each IVF cycle…..but on occasion, naturally enough, I didn’t feel myself. IVF medication can make you feel like you’ve been abducted by aliens – your body is not your… Continue reading A little understanding

It’s natural to feel envious when so many people have what you want and it seems to come so easy. I can’t think of a time I’ve ever felt jealous of anyone as I generally counted myself lucky in life. But this journey of heartache and disappointment can really change you and make you feel… Continue reading Jealousy, Anger and Resentment

Fertility issues, whether it be struggling to conceive, recurrent miscarriage or repeated IVF cycles, will take a toll on any relationship. I think I must be one of the lucky ones, as my relationship with my husband seems to have gotten stronger despite each challenge we faced. Of course it wasn’t easy, but I’m a… Continue reading Impact on relationships

Previous health issues I’d experienced over the years made me appreciate life and feel grateful for what I had. I told myself that things could be worse – they definitely could. But when you’re in the midst of Infertility and everything that comes with it, there is nothing worse. Many people might wonder why women put themselves through IVF, pump drugs into their… Continue reading Enough